Saturday, January 10, 2009

first week of January Roundup



My word for the week was TIRED  as in exhausted.  I don't know its the weather (extremely cold), coming back after two weeks off, post-holiday blues, or a combination of all plus my crappy physical shape- but I have been really tired all week.  I have flipped between moments of high energy and then times of feeling completely slug-like.  Hopefully next week will find me in better shape all the way around.  

I didn't do any scrapping this week but did a lot of online searching and shopping.. which then I feel guilty about and the cycle starts again.  Suffice it to say that when the post office gets all my goodies to me, I will have no excuse to not do a lot of learning with Tim Holtz's products.  I ordered alcohol inks, some more stickles which I love,  some stuff for my Life Well Crafted class, and tons more... oh yeah ink pads and embossing powders etc.  Uggh.  I really have struggled this week with my compulsive behaviours and done a lot of soul-searching as well.  I am looking into what is it I am really hungry for... watching Oprah on Monday was really profound for me.. to think about what it is that keeps me overweight and thus self-loathing, what is it I am seeking to fill up in my life... what part is out of balance.... I am still working on that but I do feel I am at least able to look at it in a truer way than before... I don't have answers yet, but they will come.   At times like this I wish I could sit with my old friend and "sister" Macrina and work thru some things... 

I have made some changes this week and I am happy with them.... I have decided to focus more on uplifting music and Christian music instead of so much of the "angry" music I usually load on my ipod.  I am trying to make sure I feed my soul instead of just perpetuating negativity.  I am not abandoning all other types of music, but I do think at this point in my journey I need to do some soul-tending...in fact I was listening to my ipod at work while I was working on statements and I was blessed with a "visiting" for lack of a better term of the Holy Spirit -no I didn't jump up shouting Hallelujah but from time to time I feel especially connected to the Divine.. and it was during this song that I felt at peace and in that moment my soul felt at rest ...
The song is Jesus Messiah by Chris Tomlin.... I  was grateful and humbled by the grace that made itself known to me.  

I somehow pulled my back out getting groceries today.. I  hope it is better tomorrow.  I think I will do some scrapping and call it a night...

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